i scratch my legs until they bleed
drip trickle down to my socks
stain the bike pedals
wash the pavement red

a work in progress - things to consider

poor little mountain boy
sheltered by your knotty pine
your mamma's bed
your sister's cries
the righteous blue unbending sky

and we made it to the top of that mountain, boy
with our hands held fast and our shoes laced tight
and i swear to god, i thought i'd die
under that righteous blue unbending sky

i don't know what it meant but i was something
to take home wrapped up in cellophane saved for tomorrow's meal
i was leftovers to share with your parents cos the rains came early this year
and the garden didn't yield much fruit

so with our hands held fast and our shoes laced tight
i filled up the tank and i drove to the heights of
the mountains that watched you grow into your skin
all painted different shades of blue

i wanted to taste good, i wanted to mean it
crush strawberries into my skin until i'm as stained as you
roll around in salt and let does bring their knobby knees to my bed


***

and we made it to the top of that mountain boy,
to your mama's bed and your knotty pine
and i swear to god i thought i'd die
under that sky so big it made my soul sing poetry
in the house your daddy built
on that grass your boy feet trampled

and you're all grown up now, big man with a
big vocabulary
but when i get the nerve to look you straight in the face
i still see a baby crying for the treetops.

andromeda strain

she used to comb her daughter's hair

and hold discarded strands under her tongue

like salted pearls, 

discreet

they were naked together      

bathing in milk sent from the promised land in preparation for the gilded altar

built from the rusted remains of promise rings and pressed coins

she gave her prize to the ocean's son

still lusting secret for the crest of waves to flood

the garden and wash away the

impending rot

colored jade, she rasied the flag and

brought ships from 

beneath the horizon

while her daughter set her hair alight and wept with the burden of burning

though she kissed the mouths of kings with bloody lips, 

it was algae that made her t r e m b l e 

when she shoveled fistfuls in her mouth, 

tasting the ashy scent of her betrayed womb

and when the tangled web of saliva  dripping from snake tongues 

froze her dusty hatred, it trapped her

daughter's moaning over torn and trampled skirt hems in her fist, 

hidden like crab shells buried on the beach

chains brushed her bare thigh

over and over again

until bruises in the shape of scorn were all the

universe could see, sour and yellow, eternal

do you love me still, mitera?

never and always until the day that i die.

hedonisticbarbariansscreamintostonepillows

eloquentlyexpressinganunheededneedforhumancontact

speakingbecomesdifficultwithdrylipsand

heavytonguespushingfutilelyagainstcrackedtombstoneteeth

everylieisbuiltofwordsandevery

wordisbuiltoflies,haphazardlystackedandpressedtogether

      earnestlyattemptingtopullmeaningfromfalseness

truthwasneversomethingeasy,truthwasnevermeantforease.

here,inquietspaceswherethethickairmakesbreathingsomedauntingtask

eventhestrongestmenfindcheststightandmusclesweak

yelllouderintonightsdarkerthanhiddenspaces

undercitytraintracksshelteringvalianturbanheroes

sneakingsecondstosmokedowntofingersbeforesharpeninginkdippedswords   yelllouderintoemptyspaceslargerthanthedeadman'srottingabdomen

       openinguptosunshineandthesquirmingcrawlofmaggots

undulatingoutwardtowardsbrokenmudpuddlepromises

indoingthis,completioncanbeneared

truthwasneversomethingeasy,truthwasnevermeantforease.

and she shouted

YES, BUT YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN

in that exasperated tone that said

please stop being such a complete 

and total fuckwad and start

making me feel like a proper human being

in a way she said

I MEAN SOMETHING 

when she really meant 

I FEEL SOMETHING

and it's all full of life until her throat

goes dry

(or maybe it's from the cigarettes)

but it doesn't even matter because he

talks back like it's his business to, with his

oh, you mean something?

i still don't feel a sense of obligation

and she shouts

always with his smart retorts

and her always with yes

but you know what i mean